Blog Termination

This blog is officially dead. No more posts will be posted.
I seek to make a new one sometime in November, everyone will be notified.
I would like to thank everyone for helping me with this blog, and I would probably need help to set a new one up again. XD

But this is it folks!
Smell ya later!

Apologies

SPM's holding me back from blogging, and so is my daily interests. I wish to come back when things calm down and when Im free. Thank you all for viewing my page and I will notify everyone once my blog is once again updated.

Thank you. God bless.

RYLA Photos

Heres a few photos from the Ryla camp that I promised I would upload.

Good times. At the performance night and on the bus.

Yeap the usual gang, Kastrya but with Sean and Nicole in some of the pictures, and the others in the earlier ones.

I miss Ryla. Heh.

Restarting Life

Its about time I change.

Restart.

RYLA Interact Club Camp 08

This year, Sean Matjeraie got me to join RYLA Interact Club's Camp. It was four days long, and it started last Friday at 3:00pm. Im very sorry for not having any photos but hope to get it from my friends once they upload it.

Day one was fun. But before all that, I met Aaron and Stephen in the morning at Aaron's house. We had breakfast, played a lil guitar and then in the afternoon we took a cab to Telang Usan Hotel to meet the fellow Ryla Participants. We played more guitar when we was there and I guess the three of us felt kinda weird because the participants kept looking at us. We took the bus and arrived at the Sarawak Cultural Village at around 5pm. We checked in and freshed up, and mixed around with new friends before dinner. When dinner arrived it was satisfactory......but not for Aaron, :) lol. At 8pm, we had a speech from our host Patrick Panai. Then we mixed around and formed our teams. After our general briefing we were suppose to go sleep. But a number of us stayed up and made new friends. We hanged out with Nicole till early morning, and we slept for only an hour.

The following day, Saturday, we were so sleep deprived but Sean and I jumped into the pond up the hills when the group went jungle trekking. It was sooooooo cold, we went from dead zombies to totally awake. Aaron and Stephen slept till about 12pm and missed all the fun, lol. We had breakfast and went to the hall for our several activities. After the opening ceremony we had our break and a continuing speech from our host. And then we learned cultural dances and folk songs from the people who lived there after lunch. The rest of the day we had to ourselfs and had dinner later on in the day. And we had to watch a movie.

On Sunday, we were late for everything. As alot of us were late sleepers, the next morning, everyone was a lil bit slow moving. Aaron was popular with all the girls btw. Stephen and I was popular with the girls from Brunei, Kuching High and St. Mary lol. Sean made all of us laugh like fucktards! Sunday was the usual routine but with different activities. When evening came we had to rehearse for our team performance at night. For Kastrya, we were going to perform as well so we had to prepare more as we need to do our Team performance. At about 6 or 7pm, Kastrya went up and we played Emily and our band song which is yet to be named. And before the last performance we played 'When the Levee Breaks' by Led Zeppelin and a solo from Alesana. At late night almost no one slept because everybody was using their time to mix around and have fun before we have to leave each other on monday.

When monday came, we went through our usual routine and we prank called lots of people hahahaha. We mixed around as much as possible and there were all the hugs and we exchanged our contacts and everything as well. We got on our bus to the hotel, and everybody bid farewell.

So yeah, thats why I didn't updated my blog for such a long time. And here you go. I promise to upload all the photos once I get it.

Ciao

Confessions

I pray to God, that I will see you again one day. And as I write this post, I admit that I have been in denial for a long time. But I write it now, and I dare say that I still have feelings for you. So Caleb, remember the time, when I told you I was over her? I take that back, I really do.


An incident in a market I went to today, reminded me how muched I liked you. And I still do. Everything came, the memories, the feelings. The feeling was sensational, up and down my spine.....I haven't had that gasp or that sensation, since you left.


So many signs, over these four years...........constantly reminding me of you. In dreams, in reality. Everywhere, I seem to see something. Visions. I pray to God, that we will meet up one day, and just talk. Get everything, everything, straighted out.


And I'll admit, its been hell since you left.....I missed you alot. But Im lucky I have friends that stood by me when I needed them. Falling into deep depression....was worst. The flurry of negative thoughts..... Those nights, just drinking, and drinking and drinking.....to forget, what I know I lost for the next two years.

I pray to God for your health, and I pray to God that everything will turn out right, with a happy ending. I don't really want anyone but you now, every other girl to me, is just like an escape from the awful truth.

As long as your away,
Tears will fall,
A heart will long,
And a soul will suffer.

As long these tears fall.
Its suicide season.............
Its Suicide Season.

Plans For Tommorrow

I have plans to take up drawing and painting professionally. And I have planned to do professional photography as well.

I guess I just can't express myself by music alone. But I admit i express myself through music mostly, maybe 90%. But theres this part of me that wants to express itself through colors and pictures. Lighting and atmosphere.

One things for sure, I have planned to study music, and I also have planned to get a degree in painting, drawing and art photography in the university im heading to. Lasalle College Of The Arts. One of the worlds most reknown universities in the arts, its one of the best choices if you are located in Asia.
To give you a quick glance of this place, I got a few pictures.


This is a view from the inside of the campus, and as you can see it's design is amazing and unconventional, designed to look like a paths into caves and canyons.


This is a section of the greenery around the Campus.


This is the main theatre at the Campus.


The library of the University.


One of the many studios designed for popular music at Lasalle.

Now everyone, brace yourselfs as you see the these few breathtaking photos from the outside of the University!






Yeap, Im glad I chose this University over the one in KL.The one in KL isn't that bad, but I guess this ones better.Much more culture, and more things happening in Singapore.
Not to mention the music scene there is much more active.Hope some of you people go there with me! :D. Evonne perhaps? Kendrick? Erica MUNJAN!!!?? :p. Hey Caleb???? Come lah, you like drawing right? they have a course on that. Hahahahaha.

And mostly, I hope my band members follow me to Singapore!

My Favourite Band

This is a post dedicated to my favourite band.

Avenged Sevenfold.

They are a heavy metal band from Long Beach, California.

Their lineup consist of M. Shadows(Main Vocal), Synyster Gates(Lead Guitarist), Zacky Vengeance(Rythm Guitarist), Johnny Christ(Bassist) and The Rev(Drummer).

Take a look below to see 'em for yourself.

Above, M. Shadows....screaming his heart out!

And here we have, the lead guitarist, Synyster Gates!

Zacky Vengeance! A lefty just like me, we lefties rock. :)

Behold, the almighty Johnny Christ. Without Johnny Christ, Avenged Sevenfold would be nothing. : D

Last, but most certainly not least......The Reverend!

And this is it ladies and gentlemen, Avenged Sevenfold. From left to right, The Rev, Zacky V, M. Shadows, Synyster Gates, and Johnny Christ.

This post is a tribute to my favourtie band. Hopefully one day they might read this, (keeping my fingers crossed) and hopefully our band Kastrya will get a chance to befriend them and play onstage with them one day(Our band's common dream).

Thats all for now folks! Now you know...........Avenged Sevenfold!

'Polymorphous Tranquility'

A little something I wrote for you. I'll publish this because I found it worthy of your name, even if you don't care anymore. You were special, we had our times, you had your ways but you excluded me. This is what was written in a time of happiness, but as Alesana says, farewell and goodbye. This poem is called 'Polymorphous Tranquility'.

All made forgotten; what brought oneself,
To a stage of dementia.
Thereafter self destruction, I ask who I bluff?
The body's core splits, like a river in the delta.

Believing in destiny though uncertain,
Thence pondering of what we mould,
And if it affects the Maker's decision,
Or if it was what He chose.

As I prayed, the King changed,
What I believe was a part of hell,
As knowledge of spirituality gained,
Walking forward, hearing chimes of a bell.

In a time, appreciating a life so satisfactory,
Thou image came, an art of beauty.
So euphoric a presence so near to me.....
Filling a soul, fueled with estasy.

As words of thee caress my provoked spirit,
Like bringing pain and sadness to a slaughterhouse.
All form of negativity in fact,
And all feelings of self-doubt.

Seeking solace in the melody of your voice,
Not forgeting that delicate sweet smile.
Taking refuge in the depth of your eyes,
Taken away by awe, taken to exile.

Your solicitude that brought me to solitude,
The care that you shared,
Dragged a wretched soul,
Out of anguishing melancholia.

Everyday I sit in front of my desk,
Looking out the window, seeing sihoulettes of golden.
Upon branches of a tree,
That sway so slowly, I conceptualize.

I now envisage, you and me in a field so green,
And when the wind would blow,
Time would stand still, and when the palm,
Of your hand touches my cheek,
The tears, crystal clear would fall,
Ever so slowly.

The different levels of metamorphosizing,
An image sculpturized while undergoing,
Stages of serinity.
You heal my wounded wings and spread them.

Free.

Sometimes

Sometimes, I wonder,
about time and space.
And how everything in the end,
all falls perfectly into place.


Sometimes, when I think hard,
Thinking about how it all works out.
And perhaps, like some say,
We shouldn't question to much.
Things are better left,
not understood.


Sometimes I just wish things were different,
But sometimes, I realize I don't want to be anyone,
but me.
Sometimes I know people have their ideas and opinions about me,
But they don't really know two fucks about things.


Sometimes I feel like I should be what Im expected of,
But I betray, I do not repent, I do my selfish deeds.
Then there comes a time, where I do otherwise,
And feel sorry for everything that I have done.
I ask and I ask, why do I say sorry,
but go ahead and do it in the first place?


And sometimes, I feel like no one.....
Unaccomplished.
But I myself see what Im capable of,
When other cocks don't.


Sometimes I ponder over matters,
That I feel nobody questions,
And I ask why?
Sometimes.

Kastrya and holidays

Holidays, end of Form 4. Some travel, go out, have a good time......

What am I up to? Ups and downs I would say. I have to study for the holidays. But at least I could go out with friends and stuff. Owh, and Kastrya(my band) is going to record our EP this December.

If any of you guys still don't know, the band Im in is called Kastrya, it actually derives from an Indonesian word 'Ksatrya' which actually means warrior. We changed the spelling because we thought it would be easier to pronounce, looks nicer and sounds better. And our bands current line-up? Our band consists of Ronnie Cain(Aaron Tan), Abel(Adit), Stephen Bong, and I(Ludovycus 318). Ronnie plays guitar and sings main vocals, I play guitar and sing backup vocals, Abel plays drums and sings backup vocals, and last but definitely not least Stephen Bong, who plays bass guitar and sings backup vocals as well. We hope to record our EP by the end of December and hopefully market it.

Well thats the brief coverage of what my holidays are about, and Im joining the Ryla Interact Club Camp next Friday I think. Going to have lots of fun!

My Official Blog Site

I would like to point out to everyone that this shall be my final attempt to set up a blog site. I would also like to say that my blog on friendster has been cancelled and terminated, and it is no longer in use.

I would like to thank everyone who as inspired me to start my blog, and those that helped me along the way. Thank you all, and all are welcome to visit my blog!