Confessions

I pray to God, that I will see you again one day. And as I write this post, I admit that I have been in denial for a long time. But I write it now, and I dare say that I still have feelings for you. So Caleb, remember the time, when I told you I was over her? I take that back, I really do.


An incident in a market I went to today, reminded me how muched I liked you. And I still do. Everything came, the memories, the feelings. The feeling was sensational, up and down my spine.....I haven't had that gasp or that sensation, since you left.


So many signs, over these four years...........constantly reminding me of you. In dreams, in reality. Everywhere, I seem to see something. Visions. I pray to God, that we will meet up one day, and just talk. Get everything, everything, straighted out.


And I'll admit, its been hell since you left.....I missed you alot. But Im lucky I have friends that stood by me when I needed them. Falling into deep depression....was worst. The flurry of negative thoughts..... Those nights, just drinking, and drinking and drinking.....to forget, what I know I lost for the next two years.

I pray to God for your health, and I pray to God that everything will turn out right, with a happy ending. I don't really want anyone but you now, every other girl to me, is just like an escape from the awful truth.

As long as your away,
Tears will fall,
A heart will long,
And a soul will suffer.

As long these tears fall.
Its suicide season.............
Its Suicide Season.